When (Written May 2, 2013)

When do you think I’ll get my chance?
When will I get to go?
On a quest, an adventure, a journey grand,
To a place that no one knows.

Why am I stuck here, why must I stay,
In this place like a prison I hate?
When I think of the places that I could be
It is all I can to do to wait.

When the birds fly by and soar away,
Free as the wind and the air,
I find that I long to escape someplace
And to travel everywhere.

The world’s so big, and I’m so small,
So I see only a bit at a time,
But really, I want to see it all
With these two small eyes of mine.

In the stories they always seem to leave,
To a journey with ends they unknown,
But I am still waiting, and wondering when,
When will come my turn to go?


(Well, I took a pretty long break from posting, considering I keep saying how I mean to post every day. >.> Oh well, I’m in the middle of exam prep so I don’t have too much time.)

You know, I read. A lot. I love reading. I don’t just love reading fantasy. I love history, and poetry (obviously), and mythology, and any sort of story I can find. But sometimes it gets really hard to read. Because nobody writes a story about the kid who never did anything. There is always some adventure, some struggle, some task that needs accomplishing. And I am jealous of that. Especially the stories about good, honest adventures. The Lost Journals of Ven Polypheme by Elizabeth Haydon, for example, is a really good adventure. No convoluted melodramatic undertones, no political agenda being pushed- just a really good, honest character on an unexpected adventure. Those are my favorite stories. I, really, do enjoy stories with political intrigue, (The King of Attolia by Megan Whalen Turner), even those with some lighter romance (Crown Duel by Sherwood Smith), and even war stories (like Lord of the Rings by J.R.R. Tolkien, or The Tapestry by Henry H. Neff), but after enough of those I always find that I am really looking forward to reading a story about an honest-to-goodness adventure. I just finished Horten’s Miraculous Mechanisms by Lissa Evans and I absolutely loved it. It was a kid’s adventure, and a kid-ish story, and that is exactly why I liked it. Reading it made me think that it is a real pity that we all grow up. It reminded me of the adventures I went on as a kid, and made me feel like we try and force ourselves to grow old early. I mean, seriously, we try to act ‘grown up’ and say that fairy tales are for kids, or are a waste of time, and manage to completely lose what was magical in them to us when we read them as kids. That sense of adventure, of standing up for what is right, and having some dream that was bigger than yourself. We ‘grow up’ and lose that, but we never mature. It is like we all forgot how to grow up to be good adults and settled for being really big kids who lose the best and most important part of being a child. Don’t do that. Grow up, but not like that. Keep reading fairy tales. I get scared sometimes, wondering if I am going to turn into one of those people who let everything they dreamed about die at their feet because they had to be ‘sensible.’ If there is any way that I can do what I want to do, and not abandon my duties in the process, then I will find it. I just wonder, sometimes, if it is even possible to do what I want to. And every time I think that I go back and read Magical Kingodm of Landover by Terry Brooks, or Howl’s Moving Castle by Diana  Wynne Jones- or maybe I go and watch something by Miyazaki, because his movies have that delightful sense of adventure in them too. Because those stories have always been the sort that kept me going. Maybe it is foolish to want an adventure like the ones in fairy tales,  but if we lose that little bit of magic in our lives we really will turn into bad adults. I don’t want to be a bad adult. I’m not so incredible a person that I will be able to accomplish anything of note, or even really change anybody’s life, so I at least want to bear witness to something great. Is that really so foolish?


Also! My school concert is this Friday night (5/3/13), so wish us luck! We (the highschool choir) are singing a bunch of choral songs- Edelweiss, Men of Harlech, Misty Mountains, God Bless America, etc.- but everybody is sort of getting sick because our state has stupid weather! (Seriously, 80° followed by 6″ of snow? Really?!) So, we will need all the luck we can get.

Jog-a-Thon is coming up fast, so if you felt like dropping any last minute donations, that would be incredible. If you want to do that you can either check out my Jog-A-Thon page, or donate directly here.

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