Out That Door

Sun and the Road (Written April 18, 2017)

I need the sun on my skin and the wind in my hair,
And a road that could take me anywhere.
I need out and away from everything near,
Anyplace else, if it’s far from here.
It sings in my blood and screams in my bones,
And it tears at my heart when I’m all alone.
This thirst for freedom, to be away,
To be somewhere new when I wake up each day,
It’s a dream that I’ve dreamed all my life, you know,
When the nights are long, and sleep is slow.
And I’ll get it someday, in a time drawing near,
And when I do the dust cloud will be the only sign that I was here.


So. It has been a year since I graduated college- the first portion, anyway. Next spring I begin attending Emporia University, for library science. Thinking about that, and of my new design changes to my blog (I changed it and my name because too many people I know were stumbling across this blog, and I really don’t want them to. I am very open when I write, and most people I know have aggressively lost the privilege of me being so open with them. So my blog is now hiding- let me know what you think of the new look!), brought the same thing to mind: running away.

I don’t mean that negatively. To quote J.R.R. Tolkien,

Fantasy is escapist, and that is its glory. If a soldier is imprisioned by the enemy, don’t we consider it his duty to escape?. . .If we value the freedom of mind and soul, if we’re partisans of liberty, then it’s our plain duty to escape, and to take as many people with us as we can!

Escape can definitely be a good thing. I think I do a lot of running away, but I also think I aught to be doing more. Hmm. Or maybe I should say I should be doing running better. It is easy to think we are running away when we are really just sitting totally still and checking out, mentally. That’s how bad things happen- because we sit there and let them. Not because we ran away.

Running away- proper running away- implies that you are paying enough attention to see bad for what it is, and are emotionally aware enough to be repulsed by it. And that is a very good thing. If more of the world were running, we might be in a better place. You know how many terrifically heroic deeds have been done by someone who was giving their utmost to run away? Maybe it isn’t as lofty a motivation as wanting to create something good, for its own sake, but trying to avoid something bad is a very good way to make good things happen.

If we are running away for the right reasons- to escape evils, to avoid bad things- then running is a very good thing. When you run, properly, you are going places. There is just one thing you have to remember: you have to come back, for the running to mean a thing.

Why do you go away? So that you can come back. So that you can see the place you came from with new eyes and extra colors. And the people there see you differently, too. Coming back to where you started is not the same as never leaving.“(Terry Pratchett)

If you never come back then the running is pointless. You let the bad things win, if you do that, every bit as much as those many people who sit down in front of them with their eyes shut and pretend they don’t know the bad things are there.

So, yeah, I think we all should try to run away a bit more. And then come back, different people with new eyes. Who knows? Maybe when we come back we will discover that there is no more need to run from the bad things we ran from before because we are different now and they can’t hurt us.


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